At the beginning of 2018 I knew I needed to make some serious changes to my life. Despite everything seemingly going well I was feeling increasingly antsy and just generally unhappy. I had been seeing a therapist for a few months who helped me unpack a bunch of stuff that had been causing problems for years. While doing the mental health work I needed to do she helped me create effective strategies to guide myself through my sporadic bouts of depression and subsequent anxiety. Great, right?!
Feeling like I was becoming a better version of myself I still had an uneasy gut feeling that something big needed to change. I started seeking out signs and some sort of direction. Mindful walking meditations, stream of consciousness journaling, deep conversations with friends and family, getting out on my bike to let my mind wander, and just being present. By May I knew what I needed to do: relocate and find a new home near an ocean.
Immediately, I had a thousand thoughts of self-doubt and endless questions to find answers for. I reached out to some friends and family for some guidance. I researched online for opportunities and location ideas. Nearly every piece of new information was pointing to Vancouver Island. Still not knowing where I would hone in on, I knew I had to spark the catalyst to kick this change in to motion. I decided to give a four-month notice to my employer and use the summer to decide.
I started telling some friends about my new direction and plans started to form. More and more signs were directing me towards Nanaimo and I needed to go check it out to be sure. I was able to fly there in mid-August as a “go, no-go” reconnaissance weekend mission for myself. I met with a potential future employer and the meeting couldn’t have gone smoother. I stayed with some family/friends and we all got along so well. I had comfortable conversations with longtime and new locals. More signs seemed to appear in kismet ways and I was able to sleep soundly for both nights.
Decision set: I’m moving - to Nanaimo - at the end of September! It is very exciting and scary but I know that all the best things are on the other side of fear so I’m going for it.
This leads me to the quote below. It had been recited at the Bikepacking Summit I attended last weekend during our Sunday yoga session while we were all in child’s pose. I had such an emotional response because it was exactly what I needed to hear and was so timely at this moment in my life. I’ve been lucky to have read many chapters so far and am looking forward to many more!